Circumstances, situations, people...bring flashbacks to who I used to be. I can't help the feeling of guilt and doubt as well...I cant help but feel the shame, and desire to hide and withdraw, but Holy Spirit you lead me back to the throne of Mercy and Grace. Surrender is not always about problems, but it is about surrendering past shame, guilt, and all...laying it at the alter, as often as needed till you let go and allow God to take control over it. To take it from you, so you can truly live in freedom and abundance and victory.
My God loves me...He chose me...He named me...He longs to bless me in more ways than I can imagine. I no longer will stop me from receiving ALL OF HIM into my life. He reminded me today with Third Day's song:
"Don't know how to explain it
But I know that words will hardly do,
Miracles with signs and wonders
Aren't enough for me to prove to you
Don't you know I've always loved you
Even before there was time
Though you turn away
I'll tell you still
Don't you know I've always loved you
And I always will
Greater love has not a man
Than the one who gives his life to prove
That he would do anything
And that's what I'm going to do for you"
I'm sorry Father, that at times I need reminders to just how Blessed I am to have the Love of God in my life everyday. That despite of who I am or used to be...YOU LOVE ME! You will still do it regardless...that is Your very nature.
How can I not help but respond with genuine heartfelt worship. That you know the depth of me...the hidden secrets that no one else knows...but You Father. And yet Jesus, You said...This is what I'll do for you: I'll lay down my very own life just to prove that I love you...
Thank You for Loving me Jesus, even when I did not understand, even when I am unlovable and so not worthy...Your love and compassion truly humbles me. I guess that is why You are God...There truly is no one like You...None...I am bare before You and I wouldnt have it any other way :o)
Blessings & One Luv!!!
