The Promise

Consumed till it hurts...
I never knew loving would hurt soo much...Again
Once more...I face the "whys?", "what if?"
Emotions intense -the physical pangs and throbs of an aching heart is all I feel...
No words to describe..but allowing myself to feel - once more...

Dont know why it hurts,
when a part of me wanted you gone.
Maybe at times I say things or wish things but dont really mean it...
But this time...I had to choose...My whole being knows it's for my good...
No more resisting, I'll cry, I'll laugh, knowing full well I'll live

This time around God I know You walk with me.
That is my strength, my hope, my cry.
I said this before and say it again
"I dont care how much it hurts or what it takes, do it Lord for me"
I know with You I have to be careful what I ask for,
But You are MY GOD and You promised me NEVER will You forsake me,
And I believe...

You will channel this energy into a passion ever consuming, yearning and desiring for You.
A new heart, brandished from trials, filled with a Love unlike any other - Your Love
A grateful, giving, kind, patience, humble, joyful, longsuffering, gentle, good, faithful, meek, temperate, trusts, protects, perseveres, & hopes (1 Cor 13: 4-8).
I believe to accomplish that for which You have purposed me to do...I need Your heart (EZEKIEL 37:26-27).

Can I just say I'm not really looking forward to the days ahead...but I know I'll get through. Because Your Grace God will never take me where You cannot protect me... I believe Lord that You are sufficient for me...You are gracious and Love...I'm holding onto Your promise to me --Jehovah Rahim...I'm in need of your compassion right now...You're teaching me how to Love. Thank You.