God my Father

Father - God the first person of the trinity, one related to another in a way suggesting that of
father and child, source, to accept responsibility for, a person often of particular power
or influence, to whom one looks for guidance and protection. (Merriam-Webster)

I found my Father today -God. For far to long I had been seeking, believing, longing, and He spoke a word to me that calmed everything...The true and real lover of my soul. It's amazing!!! I found Him right where He has always been = with me. As I entered into His Shekinah presence during worship in the TEN, giving Him praises, exalting His magnificence, and just loving Him with all of me...As the tears streamed down my face, I felt Him lovingly cover me. It is as if my tear-stained downcast head was tenderly lift up so I could see and feel LOVE! During the workshop we were asked to journal our experience during this free worship at the altar. As I stared at my paper, I wrote what..."I trust Your way God"....And this floored me...

I cried, and cried...dont know why. It was as if I had been released from something I had been holding unto. It was great! Tears welledup in my eyes, streams flowed and drenched my shirt...When I had finally gathered the strength to respond to God, this is what I told Him: "You who has done the impossible over and over again. What can You not do?...You who has given me Your best. What will You withhold from me?"...YOU ARE MY FATHER...these last words had me weeping al over again. I wept for joy, I wept in release, I wept in repentance of having rejected His love, over and over...I wept because He is a faithful, good, loving God. He sees me, all of me and yet still loves me the same. He has always known me...My Fathercreated me.

He gave me my rhema word:I am Your Father. You are not lost. You have found me..my relationship with my Father is very exciitng. It is new, it is sacred, it is exactly what I needed from Him. It is beautiful and amazing. And I cant wait to see How I grow in His total love and covering. God's Love is amazing and I accept His invitation to be my Father. To be the light upon my path. To direct my steps. To be more than enough. I cant thank Him enough for His patience with me. For loving me from afar...now I need Him to love me from within. To be with me, walk with me, live with me, and be my God and I will be His daughter.

I havent exactly had the best relationship with my father. Our relationship got really strained when I found out that I had a step-sister. A relationship that was once sacred and precious between us was severed and I was shattered. I didnt want to forgive, for that meant accepting that I was no longer daddy's little girl...He had cheated on a promise to love me, His one and only daughter. I felt betrayed and no longer his baby girl. God assured me today that I am His daughter and He has & always will be my God..For God is my Father. He desires to dwell in me...to love on me...to pour His love and have me respond in what is only natural - geunine heartfelt worship & desire to please Him. God desires to take responsibility for my life in all areas, to be my source, to guide and to protect me with His awesome power. He truly, in every sense of the word IS my Father...my Father...

Father...Father...my God, I thank You that Youdesired and succeeded in making me whole. To heal wounds and renew relationships. I thank You for loving me more than I'll ever know. I believe that Your Love is eternal, because You said so. And You are not man that You should lie or change Your mind. I thank You for our relationship. Father, I get soo excited thinking about all that we have to talk about and catch-up on. I accept Your invitation to be my God and Father and I invite You into my life once again. Still me always in Your presence. Open my ears and speak to me Father. For it is in Your presence that I am nourished, nurtured, loved, accepted, and protected. May the newness of our relationship flow into all the relationships in my life. Father I recognize that it is not by works that I'm saved but because You loved me and came for me. Thank You Jehovah Shammah. In Jesus' name. Amen