Good Friday

"Good" - According to Meriam-Webster "good " means : of a favorable character or tendency, virtuous, kind, benevolent, of the highest worth or reliability, praiseworthy character, forever, permanently"

These certainly lists all that we ascribe to our Great God. For today, Jesus made good on all our sins. He gave His life as atonement for our sins. He came to fulfill the prophesy that the Son of God and Son of man will be convicted for our sins and thus eternally reconciling us with our Creator and Benevolent Father.

I decided to spend the greater majority of today in free worship, prayer, and reflection. Just letting the Holy Spirit guide me, flood me with emotions, with thoughts, reflections, praise, tears, joy, everything.

It's soo amazing a God who would create us in His image, send us into this world to figure it out. It's amazing a God who k nows His creation soo wel and knows that we would find Him. Cast out into the world, babes, crawling, learning to walk, falling, crying out, resisting, struggling, fighting, going in and out of His will, swaying to extremems, because in our hearts there's the question of "Why was I made?"...an everburning, intense "There is more to life than what is"...He placed in us an unquenchable thirst...that we would seek to fulfill in this world, till when we're drowning in our sins. A God with a big heart, looks down upon us, reaches out as we scream with all that we've reached our point of exhaustion and frustration with this world. We lift up our hands in painful, hopeless, surrender...but that is when Jehovah Rahim looks down with compassion and ever understanding love, takes us...Covers us with righteousness, opens our eyes to why He created us...we slowly learn we can be happy in this world while serving the one and only true living God. That we are free, that we are able to accomplish wonderful deeds.

With that said my life is made meaningful as I allow God to operate through me. I am a new creation, with new thoughts, a new life...and Jesus lives in and through me. Though the old man is still in this mortal flesh body, Jesus overcame the world. The King of the highest Glory lives in me and is able to establish His Kingdom right here on earth. My life is made that much more pleasant, and valuable because though I'm inthe world, I'm covered by the shed blood of Jesus. I now know that God is truly able, when I let go...And He has never and never will let go of me. Through the pain, the rejections, the shut doors, failed relationships, betrayals by friends and family, God You never let me go. No one will and can ever love me like You.

As I continue to walk more strongly and courageously, with greater assurance and confidence that my God is my everything, I find it more possible to hope, to rest, to live in Faith. Placing my trust in you and not people. I find even possible to love those who've hurt me and to forgive, given no space to remembering hurts. Chosing love at all times, because God you chose me. You Love me. You gave Your son for me. Jesus You took the blame for what You did not do. You loved me with arms open.

My love journey with Jesus truly has begun as all these realizations set in. The only real, true posession I have is Your name Jesus. In Your name I can come before the Father, entering behind the veil to worship. By Your name I am rescued, victorious, redeemed, made holy. Words cannot equate how Your name makes me feel, consuming me with all types of emotions. Your offering does not hold me in bondage, but sets me free to give You the only natural response I know how - praise and worship You.

My passage for today is Isaiah 53: 1-12.

I am no longer the same. Jesus died for me. The Holy Spirit baptized me into the Body of Christ. I am God's daughter. Everyday I will commit myself to Your hands God. I will strive to give You my best always. With the help of the Holy Spirit and by Your grace I will Glorify You with my life. No longer taking for granted all that You do for me, both seen and unseen, daily provisions. I belong to You Jesus, and gladly declare once more that You are the Lord of my life. Still me lord when I am hardpressed, tune me into Your directions, may Your voice be the only one I listen to. Teach me to be disciplined. Press the best of You in me. Help me remember each morning as I awake with You...That All I need is You God. Daily sufficiency is You. You truly are my daily portion. Fulfilling me. Teach me how to walk in humility, gratefulness, selflessness, peace, and joy. Thank You Jesus for being the Saviour King, abandoning Your throne and coming to meet me who was dying in sin, with my last strength, hope, and when all I could muster was "DADDY!!" You came for me.