My invitation to God

Today I asked God to give me a sign, hope, that what I'm chasing after is truly from Him. I asked Jesus to speak to me today, because He can. And while getting ready for work, I was listening to Hillsong "Your Name High" on you tube with the intro about the church. One of the members was talking to the crowd gathered about how God should be God in our hearts. Allowing Him to truly do the work that He wants to do in us. What got to me was "I don't know what will happen if we truly allow God to invade our lives and invade our hearts"...

I believe God was responding to me as He always does, with questions that dont need answers. God asked me if whether what I was seeking is what I really needed to go out into the world to change the world for Him... Do I need to be a physician to touch lives? To make a difference? To create sustaining programs? That provide hope? How wrong I've been thinking that the title would open doors, get me access, respect, and the power to do what I want...when it's God who opens doors....How wrong I thought those skill sets can do anything anywhere, because they'll always be needed...What the world needs is God, nothing else...To do the change I desire and He wants to see, shouldnt I be going out in His name?

So my prayer today, is for God to remove all doubt, disbelief, and fear. To remove my ideas and plans, to cause a shift in me where I'm open to His will. Where I truly allow Jesus Christ to be the Lord of my life. To live for Him and not for myself. To see Him glorified in all that I do. In as much as I thought that I was living for You God, I now realize the errors of my ways. Forgive me for trying to get You to be in alignment with my will...how futile were all these efforts...And I thank You. Why would You give it to me, if it's not what Your will is for me?...God, You showed me that there's nothing wrong with these plans and desires. But how can You bring what You have for me in, if I keep trying to fill-up when You empty me??..I thank You that You did not fulfill them, for You're not a God who just gives because we ask. How would I truly learn that You're the living Great and Powerful God who created me for Your purpose and delight...You want to build Your character in me, a godly woman, who is ready to be called to serve anywhere at all times for You. That's all You ever promised to do for me...

So today, Almighty God, and Compassionate Jehovah, I ask for Your forgiveness. I am sorry for trying to do things my way. I'm sorry for not being patient enough to wait in the stillness of Your presence. I surrender myself to Your leadership. If You lead, I promise to follow. I truly desire You Jesus Christ to be the Lord of my life. To use me. I may not know where I'm going...but God, You have promised to lead me, the blind by ways I have not known. So I'll sit and wait on You God. Wait for Your prompting. Wait for You to put the pieces together. I say yes to whatever Your heart desires, whatever Your will is for me. I say Yes to You God. Yes! Please radically invade my heart and my life...The only expectation I have is that You will flood into me through Your Holy Spirit and make Your Glory known to the world. Grant me the strength to be faithful where You have placed me today. To seek out opportunities to be a blessing to those around me today. And to live not in forward future thinking, but in today's world. Rejoicing that You are all I need. In Faith I thank You and declare that I am free! In Jesus' name. Amen