I have been spending alot of time reflecting and learning how to enter God's presence...So thus far I conclude that faith for women is tied deep to our beauty. Being able to be open and vulnerable to God is crucial in connecting our hearts to His. From my most recent moments spent with God, I am able to enter in His presence, when I truly worship from my heart, from my femininity, from a place of vulnerability, honesty, and total abandonment. Yes, going in as a lover to their one and only true love, a daughter running to her Father's secret dwelling place, a blood washed and Spirit filled believer going boldy before the throne of Great Love and Mercy. As I connect with God in this manner, He is able to relate to me as a tender, generous, lover of my soul. It is beautiful...
Yesterday was an incredible worship experience...and an incredible victory over all attempts by the devil to delay, to overwhelm, to shame, or exhaust me. God really stepped in for me. I cant list everything but I'm grateful for the Holy Spirit's prompting that I should put on the armor and prepare to battle to keep my cool, my hope, my focus, and drive throughout the day. God was faithful in re-supplying EVERYTHING!!! From words of encouragement, to songs that inspire, to feeling His love and protection. I truly felt like an invisible girl, nothing could stop me. Not my curtains crashing, not my lost pink lady, not pressure from work causing me to spend over 9 hrs at work....by the end I was not exhausted but ever inspired to praise God for keeping me sane through it all.
God is awesome in His love. I believe as women, He really wants to be our everything. The rescuer of the damsel in distress, the caterer to our every need, the joy bringer and comforter in time of sorrow...He is offering this not just to me but to you too, if you would let Him meet you where it hurts, in the darkness of shame, in the covered sorrows...I believe in my heart that Jesus can heal ALL wounds. Dont ask me how He did it for me...invite Him for yourself and believe that He who already died for you, would desire to make you whole and walk in the fullness of life. I'll gladly get you started...
"Jesus...I thank You for loving me. Apply to me the fullness of Your death and ressurrection to my life. I renounce all agreements I have made with the Enemy about me(unforgiveness, anger, pain, worthlessness etc...) I believe that You died for me on the cross so that I may have life abundantly. Jesus come for me here. Meet me here. I open my life and all areas of my life to You, and ask for Your healing. I thank You that I am wonderfully and fearfully made, in Your image. Thank You for making me whole in You. Amen"
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
God my Father
Father - God the first person of the trinity, one related to another in a way suggesting that of
father and child, source, to accept responsibility for, a person often of particular power
or influence, to whom one looks for guidance and protection. (Merriam-Webster)
I found my Father today -God. For far to long I had been seeking, believing, longing, and He spoke a word to me that calmed everything...The true and real lover of my soul. It's amazing!!! I found Him right where He has always been = with me. As I entered into His Shekinah presence during worship in the TEN, giving Him praises, exalting His magnificence, and just loving Him with all of me...As the tears streamed down my face, I felt Him lovingly cover me. It is as if my tear-stained downcast head was tenderly lift up so I could see and feel LOVE! During the workshop we were asked to journal our experience during this free worship at the altar. As I stared at my paper, I wrote what..."I trust Your way God"....And this floored me...
I cried, and cried...dont know why. It was as if I had been released from something I had been holding unto. It was great! Tears welledup in my eyes, streams flowed and drenched my shirt...When I had finally gathered the strength to respond to God, this is what I told Him: "You who has done the impossible over and over again. What can You not do?...You who has given me Your best. What will You withhold from me?"...YOU ARE MY FATHER...these last words had me weeping al over again. I wept for joy, I wept in release, I wept in repentance of having rejected His love, over and over...I wept because He is a faithful, good, loving God. He sees me, all of me and yet still loves me the same. He has always known me...My Fathercreated me.
He gave me my rhema word:I am Your Father. You are not lost. You have found me..my relationship with my Father is very exciitng. It is new, it is sacred, it is exactly what I needed from Him. It is beautiful and amazing. And I cant wait to see How I grow in His total love and covering. God's Love is amazing and I accept His invitation to be my Father. To be the light upon my path. To direct my steps. To be more than enough. I cant thank Him enough for His patience with me. For loving me from afar...now I need Him to love me from within. To be with me, walk with me, live with me, and be my God and I will be His daughter.
I havent exactly had the best relationship with my father. Our relationship got really strained when I found out that I had a step-sister. A relationship that was once sacred and precious between us was severed and I was shattered. I didnt want to forgive, for that meant accepting that I was no longer daddy's little girl...He had cheated on a promise to love me, His one and only daughter. I felt betrayed and no longer his baby girl. God assured me today that I am His daughter and He has & always will be my God..For God is my Father. He desires to dwell in me...to love on me...to pour His love and have me respond in what is only natural - geunine heartfelt worship & desire to please Him. God desires to take responsibility for my life in all areas, to be my source, to guide and to protect me with His awesome power. He truly, in every sense of the word IS my Father...my Father...
Father...Father...my God, I thank You that Youdesired and succeeded in making me whole. To heal wounds and renew relationships. I thank You for loving me more than I'll ever know. I believe that Your Love is eternal, because You said so. And You are not man that You should lie or change Your mind. I thank You for our relationship. Father, I get soo excited thinking about all that we have to talk about and catch-up on. I accept Your invitation to be my God and Father and I invite You into my life once again. Still me always in Your presence. Open my ears and speak to me Father. For it is in Your presence that I am nourished, nurtured, loved, accepted, and protected. May the newness of our relationship flow into all the relationships in my life. Father I recognize that it is not by works that I'm saved but because You loved me and came for me. Thank You Jehovah Shammah. In Jesus' name. Amen
father and child, source, to accept responsibility for, a person often of particular power
or influence, to whom one looks for guidance and protection. (Merriam-Webster)
I found my Father today -God. For far to long I had been seeking, believing, longing, and He spoke a word to me that calmed everything...The true and real lover of my soul. It's amazing!!! I found Him right where He has always been = with me. As I entered into His Shekinah presence during worship in the TEN, giving Him praises, exalting His magnificence, and just loving Him with all of me...As the tears streamed down my face, I felt Him lovingly cover me. It is as if my tear-stained downcast head was tenderly lift up so I could see and feel LOVE! During the workshop we were asked to journal our experience during this free worship at the altar. As I stared at my paper, I wrote what..."I trust Your way God"....And this floored me...
I cried, and cried...dont know why. It was as if I had been released from something I had been holding unto. It was great! Tears welledup in my eyes, streams flowed and drenched my shirt...When I had finally gathered the strength to respond to God, this is what I told Him: "You who has done the impossible over and over again. What can You not do?...You who has given me Your best. What will You withhold from me?"...YOU ARE MY FATHER...these last words had me weeping al over again. I wept for joy, I wept in release, I wept in repentance of having rejected His love, over and over...I wept because He is a faithful, good, loving God. He sees me, all of me and yet still loves me the same. He has always known me...My Fathercreated me.
He gave me my rhema word:I am Your Father. You are not lost. You have found me..my relationship with my Father is very exciitng. It is new, it is sacred, it is exactly what I needed from Him. It is beautiful and amazing. And I cant wait to see How I grow in His total love and covering. God's Love is amazing and I accept His invitation to be my Father. To be the light upon my path. To direct my steps. To be more than enough. I cant thank Him enough for His patience with me. For loving me from afar...now I need Him to love me from within. To be with me, walk with me, live with me, and be my God and I will be His daughter.
I havent exactly had the best relationship with my father. Our relationship got really strained when I found out that I had a step-sister. A relationship that was once sacred and precious between us was severed and I was shattered. I didnt want to forgive, for that meant accepting that I was no longer daddy's little girl...He had cheated on a promise to love me, His one and only daughter. I felt betrayed and no longer his baby girl. God assured me today that I am His daughter and He has & always will be my God..For God is my Father. He desires to dwell in me...to love on me...to pour His love and have me respond in what is only natural - geunine heartfelt worship & desire to please Him. God desires to take responsibility for my life in all areas, to be my source, to guide and to protect me with His awesome power. He truly, in every sense of the word IS my Father...my Father...
Father...Father...my God, I thank You that Youdesired and succeeded in making me whole. To heal wounds and renew relationships. I thank You for loving me more than I'll ever know. I believe that Your Love is eternal, because You said so. And You are not man that You should lie or change Your mind. I thank You for our relationship. Father, I get soo excited thinking about all that we have to talk about and catch-up on. I accept Your invitation to be my God and Father and I invite You into my life once again. Still me always in Your presence. Open my ears and speak to me Father. For it is in Your presence that I am nourished, nurtured, loved, accepted, and protected. May the newness of our relationship flow into all the relationships in my life. Father I recognize that it is not by works that I'm saved but because You loved me and came for me. Thank You Jehovah Shammah. In Jesus' name. Amen
Liturgical Dance Institute
Woke up this morning of 4/18/09 with a heavy spirit. Found myself crying out to God for a change, for a newness to living. I needed Him to heal the wounds that I thought I had covered or were healed...I no longer had the strength, or desire, or creative spin to hide what was true = my heart hurts...
God woke me up later in the morning...Praise God for I had not set my alarm. He got me on the bus, off to another dance ministry institute training, excited to learn something new. The weight I brought with me had not lifted, but I was doing my best to move it aside. I was here to learn about dance and refine my technique. Polite acknowledgments here and there, hugs, and hellos...usual... But the ice-breaker started preparing my heart to hear God's rhema word He had for me today. I had never done this type of ice-breaker before: hug someone and love on them as scriptures are read. The point is to keep hugging and blessing them till you hear a scripture with "love" and then switch to the next person. Let's say I was loved-up by the end of the exercise :o)
Today's lessons were on Godly Character, Accountability, the Tabernacles of Moses and David. First off, my team had to choreograph movement to portray the "Ark of the Covenant" that is found in the Holiest of Holies. At the end, of our short piece we decided how best to worship God that to surrender and prostrate face-down before the GREAT I AM. One of our team-mates was an elderly woman, we thought she would stay standing but at the end, there was praise being given to God. I lifted my head and saw her, face-down on the floor with everyone, worshipping God...as if that was not amazing enough! Found out she was 92!!!! Had walked in with no cane and moved in unison with us and humbled herself before God the creator. Her testimony of God being her everything through life, was encouraging. She was part of an ongoing praise and worship of God that endures over generations and generations. Me coming into God's presence with a praise and a dance...her preparing to leave this world and enter the Heavenlies with a praise and a dance.
Today's class truly opened my eyes that I am a minister of the dance. It is about God and I am nothing but a vessel that births His vision. I am blessed to be part of such a creative arts ministry where our praise and worship is our bodies. I can stretch my arm to the Father, I can leap for joy, I can fall on my knees at the cross. It's incredible!
Ok...part II of the workshop is why I'm most excited...see "God my Father" piece :o)
God woke me up later in the morning...Praise God for I had not set my alarm. He got me on the bus, off to another dance ministry institute training, excited to learn something new. The weight I brought with me had not lifted, but I was doing my best to move it aside. I was here to learn about dance and refine my technique. Polite acknowledgments here and there, hugs, and hellos...usual... But the ice-breaker started preparing my heart to hear God's rhema word He had for me today. I had never done this type of ice-breaker before: hug someone and love on them as scriptures are read. The point is to keep hugging and blessing them till you hear a scripture with "love" and then switch to the next person. Let's say I was loved-up by the end of the exercise :o)
Today's lessons were on Godly Character, Accountability, the Tabernacles of Moses and David. First off, my team had to choreograph movement to portray the "Ark of the Covenant" that is found in the Holiest of Holies. At the end, of our short piece we decided how best to worship God that to surrender and prostrate face-down before the GREAT I AM. One of our team-mates was an elderly woman, we thought she would stay standing but at the end, there was praise being given to God. I lifted my head and saw her, face-down on the floor with everyone, worshipping God...as if that was not amazing enough! Found out she was 92!!!! Had walked in with no cane and moved in unison with us and humbled herself before God the creator. Her testimony of God being her everything through life, was encouraging. She was part of an ongoing praise and worship of God that endures over generations and generations. Me coming into God's presence with a praise and a dance...her preparing to leave this world and enter the Heavenlies with a praise and a dance.
Today's class truly opened my eyes that I am a minister of the dance. It is about God and I am nothing but a vessel that births His vision. I am blessed to be part of such a creative arts ministry where our praise and worship is our bodies. I can stretch my arm to the Father, I can leap for joy, I can fall on my knees at the cross. It's incredible!
Ok...part II of the workshop is why I'm most excited...see "God my Father" piece :o)
Friday, April 17, 2009
My Most Prized Possession
"For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to Him" (2 Chronicles 16:9)
"My soul yearns, even faints,
for the courts of the LORD;
my heart and my flesh cry out
for the living God."
(Psalm 84:2)
I haven't been blogging for a while because there's been an ongoing revelation that needed clarity before I could write. Learning about God's character as it applies/relates to women has been eye opening. All that I as a woman longs for, is the same way God wants me in my femininity to relate to Him. As a woman, my most prized possession is my heart. For the external beauty fades, money and wealth like the flowers of the field can bloom and abound one day and be gone the next. A lot of this world is transient, but with age, a woman's heart has known, pain, sorrow, joy, love, forgiveness, anger, acceptance and soo much more. Over time a woman's heart has learnt to bear alot, but above all has learnt to love many including self and God.
I believe my walk with God has been Him showing me one thing after another to commit to Him. It's not a refusal to share with others, it is saying "Father, my God, I owe You everything and desire to please You. What I do have I give to You. All that I find of worth I give to You. I give You first place in ALL and EVERYTHING that I am." Last year God asked me for a dance, I've given Him dance, and will continue to strive to give Him the best in movement. This year, God has asked of me, my most prized possession in its entirety... He desires my heart. So Father I gladly give You my heart...For when a heart is given, true vulnerability is revealed. I am trusting Him, His intentions and His ability to care for me. I'm trusting His decisions for my life. Trusting His plans, purpose, unfailing promises, and faithfulness. Thereby causing a greater need and dependence on God. In the end, I believe God just wants to be there for all of us - nothing more. That we will walk with Him and He can be what He is - OUR GOD!
"Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me."
(Psalm 51:10)
Heavenly Father, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for creating me as a woman in Your image of grace, mercy, tenderness, beauty, and love. Father as I continue to learn more and more about my relationship with You,... You amaze me! Father, You are incredible the way You love and have loved me. For being my keeper, my protector, the pursuer of my heart and all of me, Thank You God. Jesus, You commanded me to love God with all my heart, soul, and mind. Teach me God how to do just that. To walk in the spirit of loving You within and without. Teach me how to accept Your invitation of a love relationship soo secure, perfect, untainted, and sacred. In faith I thank You fo creating within me a pure and clean heart that is devoted to You. God You will be glorified in and through me. All praise and honor to You Father, in Jesus' name. Amen.
"My soul yearns, even faints,
for the courts of the LORD;
my heart and my flesh cry out
for the living God."
(Psalm 84:2)
I haven't been blogging for a while because there's been an ongoing revelation that needed clarity before I could write. Learning about God's character as it applies/relates to women has been eye opening. All that I as a woman longs for, is the same way God wants me in my femininity to relate to Him. As a woman, my most prized possession is my heart. For the external beauty fades, money and wealth like the flowers of the field can bloom and abound one day and be gone the next. A lot of this world is transient, but with age, a woman's heart has known, pain, sorrow, joy, love, forgiveness, anger, acceptance and soo much more. Over time a woman's heart has learnt to bear alot, but above all has learnt to love many including self and God.
I believe my walk with God has been Him showing me one thing after another to commit to Him. It's not a refusal to share with others, it is saying "Father, my God, I owe You everything and desire to please You. What I do have I give to You. All that I find of worth I give to You. I give You first place in ALL and EVERYTHING that I am." Last year God asked me for a dance, I've given Him dance, and will continue to strive to give Him the best in movement. This year, God has asked of me, my most prized possession in its entirety... He desires my heart. So Father I gladly give You my heart...For when a heart is given, true vulnerability is revealed. I am trusting Him, His intentions and His ability to care for me. I'm trusting His decisions for my life. Trusting His plans, purpose, unfailing promises, and faithfulness. Thereby causing a greater need and dependence on God. In the end, I believe God just wants to be there for all of us - nothing more. That we will walk with Him and He can be what He is - OUR GOD!
"Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me."
(Psalm 51:10)
Heavenly Father, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for creating me as a woman in Your image of grace, mercy, tenderness, beauty, and love. Father as I continue to learn more and more about my relationship with You,... You amaze me! Father, You are incredible the way You love and have loved me. For being my keeper, my protector, the pursuer of my heart and all of me, Thank You God. Jesus, You commanded me to love God with all my heart, soul, and mind. Teach me God how to do just that. To walk in the spirit of loving You within and without. Teach me how to accept Your invitation of a love relationship soo secure, perfect, untainted, and sacred. In faith I thank You fo creating within me a pure and clean heart that is devoted to You. God You will be glorified in and through me. All praise and honor to You Father, in Jesus' name. Amen.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Today's Prayer
Heavenly Father, I thank You for opening my eyes this morning to Your glorious beauty. Your creation is absolutely magnificent, the vibrant colors emanating from an incredible sunrise over the still tranquil harbor, to the newly sprouting plants rooted so deeply in the rich brown earth. Everywhere I see new life and new beginnings. I thank You that I have yet another day to praise You and walk with You. I thank You for always being there. To think a God soo great and powerful, would chose to love me just as I am, fills my heart with gladness and gratitude. I thank You Father for searching deep within me and purging me of all that is not of You and pulling out all that You have placed within me. Forgive me Father that oftentimes I allow myself to be consumed by thoughts, ways, and things that easily beset me. Forgive me Father when I willfully go against Your desires and expectations of me to walk in righteousness and love at all times. I thank You that when soo easily I forget whose I am and who I serve...You are quick to remind me that I am Yours. Thank You for guiding my way. Thank You Father for Your promises over my life. I know that You are a faithful God. Help me remember especially when the pressures of the world intensifies and everything is cloudy, when I've done all that I can do...that You alone are God, You are the great I AM, You are Alpha & Omega. Help me remember that You have promised to be my God, which is all I'll ever need. No good thing will You withold from me. So I thank You for truly being my Father. To You belong all Glory, Honor, and Praise forever. In Jesus' name. Amen
Friday, April 10, 2009
Good Friday
"Good" - According to Meriam-Webster "good " means : of a favorable character or tendency, virtuous, kind, benevolent, of the highest worth or reliability, praiseworthy character, forever, permanently"
These certainly lists all that we ascribe to our Great God. For today, Jesus made good on all our sins. He gave His life as atonement for our sins. He came to fulfill the prophesy that the Son of God and Son of man will be convicted for our sins and thus eternally reconciling us with our Creator and Benevolent Father.
I decided to spend the greater majority of today in free worship, prayer, and reflection. Just letting the Holy Spirit guide me, flood me with emotions, with thoughts, reflections, praise, tears, joy, everything.
It's soo amazing a God who would create us in His image, send us into this world to figure it out. It's amazing a God who k nows His creation soo wel and knows that we would find Him. Cast out into the world, babes, crawling, learning to walk, falling, crying out, resisting, struggling, fighting, going in and out of His will, swaying to extremems, because in our hearts there's the question of "Why was I made?"...an everburning, intense "There is more to life than what is"...He placed in us an unquenchable thirst...that we would seek to fulfill in this world, till when we're drowning in our sins. A God with a big heart, looks down upon us, reaches out as we scream with all that we've reached our point of exhaustion and frustration with this world. We lift up our hands in painful, hopeless, surrender...but that is when Jehovah Rahim looks down with compassion and ever understanding love, takes us...Covers us with righteousness, opens our eyes to why He created us...we slowly learn we can be happy in this world while serving the one and only true living God. That we are free, that we are able to accomplish wonderful deeds.
With that said my life is made meaningful as I allow God to operate through me. I am a new creation, with new thoughts, a new life...and Jesus lives in and through me. Though the old man is still in this mortal flesh body, Jesus overcame the world. The King of the highest Glory lives in me and is able to establish His Kingdom right here on earth. My life is made that much more pleasant, and valuable because though I'm inthe world, I'm covered by the shed blood of Jesus. I now know that God is truly able, when I let go...And He has never and never will let go of me. Through the pain, the rejections, the shut doors, failed relationships, betrayals by friends and family, God You never let me go. No one will and can ever love me like You.
As I continue to walk more strongly and courageously, with greater assurance and confidence that my God is my everything, I find it more possible to hope, to rest, to live in Faith. Placing my trust in you and not people. I find even possible to love those who've hurt me and to forgive, given no space to remembering hurts. Chosing love at all times, because God you chose me. You Love me. You gave Your son for me. Jesus You took the blame for what You did not do. You loved me with arms open.
My love journey with Jesus truly has begun as all these realizations set in. The only real, true posession I have is Your name Jesus. In Your name I can come before the Father, entering behind the veil to worship. By Your name I am rescued, victorious, redeemed, made holy. Words cannot equate how Your name makes me feel, consuming me with all types of emotions. Your offering does not hold me in bondage, but sets me free to give You the only natural response I know how - praise and worship You.
My passage for today is Isaiah 53: 1-12.
I am no longer the same. Jesus died for me. The Holy Spirit baptized me into the Body of Christ. I am God's daughter. Everyday I will commit myself to Your hands God. I will strive to give You my best always. With the help of the Holy Spirit and by Your grace I will Glorify You with my life. No longer taking for granted all that You do for me, both seen and unseen, daily provisions. I belong to You Jesus, and gladly declare once more that You are the Lord of my life. Still me lord when I am hardpressed, tune me into Your directions, may Your voice be the only one I listen to. Teach me to be disciplined. Press the best of You in me. Help me remember each morning as I awake with You...That All I need is You God. Daily sufficiency is You. You truly are my daily portion. Fulfilling me. Teach me how to walk in humility, gratefulness, selflessness, peace, and joy. Thank You Jesus for being the Saviour King, abandoning Your throne and coming to meet me who was dying in sin, with my last strength, hope, and when all I could muster was "DADDY!!" You came for me.
These certainly lists all that we ascribe to our Great God. For today, Jesus made good on all our sins. He gave His life as atonement for our sins. He came to fulfill the prophesy that the Son of God and Son of man will be convicted for our sins and thus eternally reconciling us with our Creator and Benevolent Father.
I decided to spend the greater majority of today in free worship, prayer, and reflection. Just letting the Holy Spirit guide me, flood me with emotions, with thoughts, reflections, praise, tears, joy, everything.
It's soo amazing a God who would create us in His image, send us into this world to figure it out. It's amazing a God who k nows His creation soo wel and knows that we would find Him. Cast out into the world, babes, crawling, learning to walk, falling, crying out, resisting, struggling, fighting, going in and out of His will, swaying to extremems, because in our hearts there's the question of "Why was I made?"...an everburning, intense "There is more to life than what is"...He placed in us an unquenchable thirst...that we would seek to fulfill in this world, till when we're drowning in our sins. A God with a big heart, looks down upon us, reaches out as we scream with all that we've reached our point of exhaustion and frustration with this world. We lift up our hands in painful, hopeless, surrender...but that is when Jehovah Rahim looks down with compassion and ever understanding love, takes us...Covers us with righteousness, opens our eyes to why He created us...we slowly learn we can be happy in this world while serving the one and only true living God. That we are free, that we are able to accomplish wonderful deeds.
With that said my life is made meaningful as I allow God to operate through me. I am a new creation, with new thoughts, a new life...and Jesus lives in and through me. Though the old man is still in this mortal flesh body, Jesus overcame the world. The King of the highest Glory lives in me and is able to establish His Kingdom right here on earth. My life is made that much more pleasant, and valuable because though I'm inthe world, I'm covered by the shed blood of Jesus. I now know that God is truly able, when I let go...And He has never and never will let go of me. Through the pain, the rejections, the shut doors, failed relationships, betrayals by friends and family, God You never let me go. No one will and can ever love me like You.
As I continue to walk more strongly and courageously, with greater assurance and confidence that my God is my everything, I find it more possible to hope, to rest, to live in Faith. Placing my trust in you and not people. I find even possible to love those who've hurt me and to forgive, given no space to remembering hurts. Chosing love at all times, because God you chose me. You Love me. You gave Your son for me. Jesus You took the blame for what You did not do. You loved me with arms open.
My love journey with Jesus truly has begun as all these realizations set in. The only real, true posession I have is Your name Jesus. In Your name I can come before the Father, entering behind the veil to worship. By Your name I am rescued, victorious, redeemed, made holy. Words cannot equate how Your name makes me feel, consuming me with all types of emotions. Your offering does not hold me in bondage, but sets me free to give You the only natural response I know how - praise and worship You.
My passage for today is Isaiah 53: 1-12.
I am no longer the same. Jesus died for me. The Holy Spirit baptized me into the Body of Christ. I am God's daughter. Everyday I will commit myself to Your hands God. I will strive to give You my best always. With the help of the Holy Spirit and by Your grace I will Glorify You with my life. No longer taking for granted all that You do for me, both seen and unseen, daily provisions. I belong to You Jesus, and gladly declare once more that You are the Lord of my life. Still me lord when I am hardpressed, tune me into Your directions, may Your voice be the only one I listen to. Teach me to be disciplined. Press the best of You in me. Help me remember each morning as I awake with You...That All I need is You God. Daily sufficiency is You. You truly are my daily portion. Fulfilling me. Teach me how to walk in humility, gratefulness, selflessness, peace, and joy. Thank You Jesus for being the Saviour King, abandoning Your throne and coming to meet me who was dying in sin, with my last strength, hope, and when all I could muster was "DADDY!!" You came for me.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
A heart to serve God
So this week, God has been working with me on "serving". Not in the traditional sense of humbling the self before another and serving them through actions, nor in ministry, neither at work or at home...because there's a fine line between serving to please people vs serving to please God...He's helping me practice discernment in that area. (Colossians 3:23).
As I continue to learn about the temperament God gave me, I realize my weaknesses tend to place me in that category. Being a person in love with harmonious peaceful living, the temptation for the path of least-resistance and people pleasing is uhm quite great. The intention may be noble, but everything I do should be to honor God. I'd like to claim that I've got this down packed...but I'm still a work in progress, Amen.
I thank God for continuing to show me my strengths and weaknesses. Especially my weaknesses because that's when I need God even more, I need His Grace that much more (2 Corinthians 12:7-10). And in the midst of my weaknesses and trials, I've seen Him holding me up. As I cry and scream and reach for Him, God has been faithful to hold me, sending messengers of peace, encouragement, and hope. Scriptures popping into my heard, music with just the right words...God is amazing.
"To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Corinthians 12:7-10)
I believe that as God continues to reveal himself to me, I will find more weaknesses. This makes me glad because, I realize even how much more I desperately need Him and desire to give Him my all. Though a little scared, but it is crucial for my growth into the woman He created me to be and the assignment He has for my life. I pray to one day get to that level of faith when I'm living and resting in the fact that His Love and Grace is sufficient for me daily.
Heavenly Father I Thank You for today, I Thank You for Your Love, I Thank You for Your faithfulness to all the promises You've made over me, and I Thank You for my beautiful temperament. May I continue to grow in grace and dependence on You. May I continue to discern Your Will at all times, seeking opportunities to serve Only You. Be glorified in my talents and shine through where I'm weak. To You belong all the Praise and Glory. In Jesus' name. Amen
As I continue to learn about the temperament God gave me, I realize my weaknesses tend to place me in that category. Being a person in love with harmonious peaceful living, the temptation for the path of least-resistance and people pleasing is uhm quite great. The intention may be noble, but everything I do should be to honor God. I'd like to claim that I've got this down packed...but I'm still a work in progress, Amen.
I thank God for continuing to show me my strengths and weaknesses. Especially my weaknesses because that's when I need God even more, I need His Grace that much more (2 Corinthians 12:7-10). And in the midst of my weaknesses and trials, I've seen Him holding me up. As I cry and scream and reach for Him, God has been faithful to hold me, sending messengers of peace, encouragement, and hope. Scriptures popping into my heard, music with just the right words...God is amazing.
"To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Corinthians 12:7-10)
I believe that as God continues to reveal himself to me, I will find more weaknesses. This makes me glad because, I realize even how much more I desperately need Him and desire to give Him my all. Though a little scared, but it is crucial for my growth into the woman He created me to be and the assignment He has for my life. I pray to one day get to that level of faith when I'm living and resting in the fact that His Love and Grace is sufficient for me daily.
Heavenly Father I Thank You for today, I Thank You for Your Love, I Thank You for Your faithfulness to all the promises You've made over me, and I Thank You for my beautiful temperament. May I continue to grow in grace and dependence on You. May I continue to discern Your Will at all times, seeking opportunities to serve Only You. Be glorified in my talents and shine through where I'm weak. To You belong all the Praise and Glory. In Jesus' name. Amen
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